11/9/2010

Wow wow wow... I miss Mandarin word... Using my cousin's laptop online in Genting Highland.. Read a lot of Mandarin words that I cannot read for almost 1 month.. I miss it.. I miss it!!! Using a small... light... little Sony Vaio laptop to online now, so convenient and easy... How much is this.. hmm~~

3days 2nites with 10ppls in a room. I donno what can I do.. eating, sleeping and gambling.. People mountain people sea here.. My mummy and auntie chit chatting.. my nephew sick and the rest just going to casino including me.. I think this is just a holiday for us.. means.. just doing nth, sit back and relax.. Suddenly feel that, the life is just nice. But, haiz.. have to return to work just after my small holiday... just.. just.. just lazy.

Not so cold not so hot at Genting Highland... a small little rain yesterday nite. I donno is there any hot sun outside. I just love the weather now. Just nice. I miss u. Just miss u.. This morning received ur sms that told me U r very happy when received my sms, I just feel sad and guilty. We such like... lost the feeling of dating. Just like no longer sweet talk, no longer manja, no longer the feeling of love. The things of replacement is just USED. We used to each others. We never enjoy the time anymore. I just felt it. This is only my feeling after I received ur sms.

I am trying to find back the feeling. I am sorry coz my always scolding. I am sorry coz my never appreciate. Promise me, don let me alone to do the improvement k???? We have to find back the feeling... To make sure we can continue our sweet r/s forever.. ;)

3rd September 2010

Long time din blog dy since my laptop cannot view in mandarin. I miss all the mandarin word in my world.... Today....... how was my day????

I late to the talk again.. this is the 2nd day, 2nd time to be late.... at this 2 days... Is it coz of I lost the form to work dy???? Or... coz of...... I really no mood to work anymore???? Honestly... I love the company. I love all of the ppl in the office... coz everyone just treat me nice. My work although not really nice. But I like it.. Even I noisy, even I luan enuf, they still treat me good.

Money not enuf la.. I waiting to become tuition teacher. Waiting for October. Waiting for the tuition center open. I don think I ll get much from there.. But I wish to make my life more colorful. Although I noe it ll be very tired.

I like this moment.. I like it so much. Because at this moment.. My life full of frens. no longer feel with love. I can just be alone. Coz I got lots of frens. Even not with my lover, I still can sms with others. My life just nice... I am lovin it...

Help help help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I really donno what shud I do.. Shud I make myself cruel let u cry sekali gus and u ll recover very soon? But how can I do it??? Let go also very hard for me.. I had try my best to tell myself that I shud stay with u.. But I really don wish that song song talk nicely to u.. song song wanna broke up with u.... I don wish u to be suffer.... Because I really love u.. but what can I do???

I don wish to suffering u.. I don wish to hurt u.. I don wish to make u sad.. Thats y i choose to leave.. I donwan u to choose.. I donwan u to make decision.. I hope u understand me.. I hope u respect me.. Leave u.. will also coz me a lot of problem.. Leave u.. will make me suffer a lot.. Leave u.. I will also lost my direction when i am driving.. But what to do.. I have to leave..

Just leave me alone.. I just wish to be alone.. long long time ago.. I dy noe.. I can be alone.. I can live very well although I am alone...

Leave me alone..

29/7/2010

有好多东西一直堆着都没做，一直说星期日再做，可是，每一个星期日都是得过且过，真不懂应该怎么办好，这份工到底好不好？怎么感觉做了工后，变懒很多，有时间不是上网就是睡觉~ 真的很想拿几天假好好沉淀自己。

可是我做工都还没3个月哩，怎么那么快就累成这个样子，真是不可思议！！！！

忽然，我好想有人陪，粗茶淡饭，可是我累的时候，抱抱我，可能，我不会感觉那么累！！！

可怜太执著的女人~

不知道为何，忽然间我有种：聪明就好，别假聪明的感觉

看了《飞女正传》，忽然觉得里头的“杨sir”好可怜，可怜是因为有了一个酱的女朋友，以为自己很聪明，做了很多东西为了要绑住她男人的心；也觉得他很自找，明知道他女朋友的为人，却还要结婚。现在这个年头，结婚和离婚，还真的是一念之差，开不开心就结婚，开不开心又离婚~

其实，身边就有一个一模一样的“杨Sir”和“Selina”，说不上是朋友，可是他们的一切，我都有听说，故事实在荒谬，“杨sir” 说：“Selina” 的母亲刚去世，为了要给一个名分她，49天里注册结了婚，由于还没摆喜酒，两人就也还没住在一起。“Selina” 天天怀疑自己的老公有外遇，每天检查他的手机，兜去他的家看他回家了没，还有事没事的大吵大闹，搞到“杨Sir”现在说要离婚了~

听起来好像是“Selina”不对嘛~ 确定吗？

他们两人在一起也不是一朝一夕的事，难道“杨sir”结婚后才知道她的模样？当两个人要结婚，不是已经考虑清楚，觉得没有问题才结婚的吗？为了一个名分而结婚，现在才来闹离婚，试问，你要给的名分，叫：弃妇？？？？

个人立场，无须介怀~~~~

23/7/2010

为什么计划永远跟不上变化，却一天到晚都要我们计划计划，明知道计划了也不代表就跟得上一切！！很闷的咧，我的烂鬼原则，要么我就表做，要么，做了就要跟从，却每次都逆着计划走动，让我每次都觉得好累好累~~~~~ 开心不开心就换一换，烂工烂工！！！

什么嘛，如果真的跟不来，好不好就表再叫我们每个星期都交上计划表，这很累的咧！！！！

22/7/2010

责任心，好像压得我透不过气来~ 我知道只要看开一点，事情也没有我想的那么灰，可是我真的过不了自己那关！！！！我不喜欢那种天天做事情没有回报的日子，我不喜欢明明做对了还要被指责的感觉！！！

谢天谢地，今天我把自己控制住了！！！！！

21/7/2010

是不是只要不开心，就会事事不顺心？是不是明明不开心，也要很开心，才不会事事不开心？

最近工作都好烦，要么就忙透了，要么就不懂要做什么~好闷！

对不起

对不起，对不起，对不起！！！！我不可以当面对你说，可是真的对不起，还好你提醒我，不然我真的又做错事了！！！你的好心提醒，不懂是察觉到了，还是无心插柳~ 希望这片柳树林，真的被你插成荫！！！

说过的话，或许我已经忘了，谢谢你一再的提醒，希望我会记得，也希望我变聪明一点，因为，自以为是的我，原来并不是那么聪明！！！

如果可以，我向往自由天空~~~~~~任由我飞翔，喜欢就离开，喜欢就逗留。

但是，真的可以么？？？

你回家了

常常有人说：相见易，相住难~ 可是，以前和你住在一起的时候，都不觉得什么问题，现在分开了，反而觉得一见面就吵架，好辛苦哦~ 为什么会酱？不是越少见面越甜蜜么？

好想知道你的感受，每一次让我骂的感觉一定不好受，可是我真的很生气，每一件事都让我好生气~为什么？为什么？

你说，你喜欢弄我生气，你喜欢看我生气的样子，我说，那你懂不懂，每一次我生气，心就会凉了一大半，时间越长，我越不想理你，我是说真的~

或许有一天，你会遇到一个很疼爱你的人，或许她从不骂你，处处让着你；或许有一天，我骂你骂累了，不想再和你争吵，或许有一个从不让我担心，不让我骂的人出现~~~~~

或许，那会是我们结束的方式~~~~~ 希望~~没有这一天的降临！！！